Merely putting the question answers it, I think: No, there is nothing wrong with boredom during meditation, at least, that’s how I feel.
And then, especially on my Dutch blog, my analysis of the responses was apparently a problem. Well, I am after all a thinking person, so I analyse what I feel. That is, for me, part of being human. You can only overcome or change what you face up to. Whether it’s feelings, or relationship issues or any other problem in your life. More, in a recent (not yet out) book on mindfulness I read that you have to be willing to do this kind of mental gymnastics in order for mindfulness meditation to be a viable path for you. What I do bears a lot of resemblance to mindfulness meditation.
But let met start by facing up to what boredom is:
- Boredom is unrest
- Boredom is awareness of emptiness
- Boredom is uncomfortable
- Boredom feels lonely
I have numbered them to be able to refer to them easily, but the main one is the second: boredom is consciousness (of emptiness). Normally we overwrite that boredom with a visualization exercise for instance or a movie, or a good book.
Look into your own boredom and see if I’m right. If you sit yourself down inside that boredom, there’s consciousness there. Not for nothing that Krishnamurti said to a bored student in one of his schools:
Most people are bored. Why? You asked how to get rid of boredom. Now find out. When you are by yourself for half an hour, you are bored. So you pick up a book, chatter, look at a magazine, go to a cinema, talk, do something. You occupy your mind with something. This is an escape from yourself. You have asked a question. Now, pay attention to what is being said. You get bored because you find yourself with yourself; and you have never found yourself with yourself. Therefore you get bored. You say: Is that all I am? I am so small, I am so worried; I want to escape from all that. What you are is very boring, so you run away. But if you say, I am not going to be bored; I am going to find out why I am like this; I want to see what I am like actually, then it is like looking at yourself in a mirror. There you see very clearly what you are, what your face looks like. Then you say that you do not like your face; that you must be beautiful, you must look like a cinema actress. But if you were to look at yourself and say, “yes, that is what I am; my nose is not very straight, my eyes are rather small, my hair is straight,” you accept it. When you see what you are, there is no boredom. Boredom comes in only when you reject what you see and want to be something else. In the same way, when you can look at yourself inside and see exactly what you are, the seeing of it is not boring. It is extraordinarily interesting, because the more you see of it, the more there is to see. You can go deeper and deeper and wider and there is no end to it. In that, there is no boredom. If you can do that, then what you do is what you love to do, and when you love to do a thing, time does not exist. When you love to plant trees, you water them, look after them, protect them; when you know what you really love to do, you will see the days are too short. (Krishnamurti on Education)
Now perhaps that was what some of you were trying to say. What I was trying to say is that you can’t get through that without facing the boredom. Just look at what is, when you do that with love and acceptance, it changes on you. And that’s how I experienced it.
More Krishnamurti on boredom.